Just started to awaken...I think!

[walking the blog]

Guys - hello from the UK!

Posting is all new to me, but it feels right tonight, so here I go...

I've been on my own spiritual journey for a couple of years now. Although I have read many books and listened to lots of CDs, I feel that it is only just starting to click for me.

My most recent read was The Sedona Method which was a huge revelation... I had very strange physical reactions when releasing - mostly burping and becoming physically exhausted (not the elegant me that I want to manifest!). That all said, I did feel that it moved me on.

I tend to revert back to Louise Hay after most books to check and balance and this time I feel a deeper understanding about my yearning to seek acceptance and love from outside of me. I can feel it holding me back and I can now see how little acceptance/appreciation/love I have given to myself over the years. (I loved the recent mirror poem posted on the site).

I'm a very loving, high energy person, but it really destroys me when I don't get it back. This issue must becoming very big as it is now mirrored in my life by so many people whose disapproval really bothers me and to really labour the point, it now feels like my husband is losing interest in me too!

I am really trying to take my attention from these external manifestations and look inside, but I don't really know how to accept myself. I've tried the Hay affirmations and Wayne Dwyers books about manifesting, but the resistance remains. The resistance has had 37 years to build so I'm not surprised that this is challenging. Any insights would be bliss. Thank you and bless you all. x

[chapsborn2bwild]

That reminds me of a good quote, "Your opinion of me is none of my business."

[Essence]

Originally Posted by walking the blog

Guys - hello from the UK!

Posting is all new to me, but it feels right tonight, so here I go...

I've been on my own spiritual journey for a couple of years now. Although I have read many books and listened to lots of CDs, I feel that it is only just starting to click for me.

My most recent read was The Sedona Method which was a huge revelation... I had very strange physical reactions when releasing - mostly burping and becoming physically exhausted (not the elegant me that I want to manifest!). That all said, I did feel that it moved me on.

I tend to revert back to Louise Hay after most books to check and balance and this time I feel a deeper understanding about my yearning to seek acceptance and love from outside of me. I can feel it holding me back and I can now see how little acceptance/appreciation/love I have given to myself over the years. (I loved the recent mirror poem posted on the site).

I'm a very loving, high energy person, but it really destroys me when I don't get it back. This issue must becoming very big as it is now mirrored in my life by so many people whose disapproval really bothers me and to really labour the point, it now feels like my husband is losing interest in me too!

I am really trying to take my attention from these external manifestations and look inside, but I don't really know how to accept myself. I've tried the Hay affirmations and Wayne Dwyers books about manifesting, but the resistance remains. The resistance has had 37 years to build so I'm not surprised that this is challenging. Any insights would be bliss. Thank you and bless you all. x

Greetings Walking the blog,
So very nice to make your acquaintance, and to Oneness.

Often when we begin this journey back to the full remembrance of who we are we do experience much in the way of what seems like our life falling apart at times. Seems we often oscillate between extreme highs and extreme lows where it feels as if our whole world suddenly makes sense no more and the people we have always known so well and associated with can feel like strangers; and often they feel the same way about us. A large portion of the cause of this is because we are "dropping off" and "leaving behind" what no longer serves our most positive forward spiritual growth. Sometimes this means people, but more often than not it simply means attitudes, thoughts and perspectives that we are really letting go of.
I am going to suggest that maybe you take a look at a thread one of our members recently posted if you have not already. James posted this thread and it has lots of good information in it about the types of symptoms you mention you have been experiencing. There are many symptoms that are common among those newly awakening and making large jumps in consciousness.
Here is a link to the thread....
Symptoms of awakening

I hope you enjoy your stay here at Experience Festival, and I hope we have many more very enlightening conversations.

Once again, Welcome


Love, Light and Blessings,

Namaste

Essence

[James]

Guys - hello from the UK!
Hello and welcome from the U.S.!

Posting is all new to me, but it feels right tonight, so here I go...
Awesome!

I've been on my own spiritual journey for a couple of years now. Although I have read many books and listened to lots of CDs, I feel that it is only just starting to click for me.
I would suggest you consider that you have been on a spiritual journey your entire life and have been prepared for whatever is next

My most recent read was The Sedona Method which was a huge revelation... I had very strange physical reactions when releasing - mostly burping and becoming physically exhausted (not the elegant me that I want to manifest!). That all said, I did feel that it moved me on.

I tend to revert back to Louise Hay after most books to check and balance and this time I feel a deeper understanding about my yearning to seek acceptance and love from outside of me. I can feel it holding me back and I can now see how little acceptance/appreciation/love I have given to myself over the years. (I loved the recent mirror poem posted on the site).
You describe the first step to all spiritual growth we have and that is recognizing it for what it is. The next step is to thank it for bringing you to where you are today and lovingly release its energy into the light.

I'm a very loving, high energy person, but it really destroys me when I don't get it back. This issue must becoming very big as it is now mirrored in my life by so many people whose disapproval really bothers me and to really labour the point, it now feels like my husband is losing interest in me too!
I have experienced the same and learned that sometimes it is best to grow quietly and let others see instead of hear your growth. However, you must always be true to yourself.

I am really trying to take my attention from these external manifestations and look inside, but I don't really know how to accept myself. I've tried the Hay affirmations and Wayne Dwyers books about manifesting, but the resistance remains. The resistance has had 37 years to build so I'm not surprised that this is challenging. Any insights would be bliss. Thank you and bless you all. X
Before you can see clearly inside you must stand face to face with why anything is holding you back. Whatever it is, and there may be many reasons, needs to be faced, thanked and its effect will release itself from you.
As a side thought, I have been married for 30 years to someone who does not share the same thoughts as myself with regards to the Spirit but as hard as it can be, we have made it work and as I grew, I actually began to realize that she was one of my greatest teacher. In the end, looking back, it was she who kept me grounded while I help her to fly.
Peace,
James

[walking the blog]

James, thank you so much for contemplating my email and for offering me so much of your experience and insight. Your final comment was the most comforting, as I love my husband and hate the thought of my evolution spelling the end of us.

Standing face to face with why things are holding me back sounds good, but not sure how to do this. Should I be meditating on the issues?

[James]

Originally Posted by walking the blog

James, thank you so much for contemplating my email and for offering me so much of your experience and insight. Your final comment was the most comforting, as I love my husband and hate the thought of my evolution spelling the end of us.

Standing face to face with why things are holding me back sounds good, but not sure how to do this. Should I be meditating on the issues?

It sounds like your marriage has a strong foundation and it will be fine.
I’m not a great at meditating but I am ALWAYS in the Spirit so whatever you do just stay alert and watch for signs and the Ah Ha moments.
Don’t rush things and also don’t rule out that you are being held back for very good reasons.
It’s all good!
Just be present and enjoy what is happening inside you and let it happen in its own time.
Truth has to be experienced.
Follow your heart.
Peace,
James

[James]

Hi again, Walking the bog!
When I was younger, I use to think others were “holding me back” and that if I was single, I could become so much more “spiritual” until I realized that those thoughts, for me anyway, came from a place of ignorance and selfish desires and fear of “coming out”.
I still sometimes fall back into these valleys in my life.
Just recently, I had a Ah Ha moment which enlightened me to some of the reason behind my overwelming “desire” to be a “healer”. I was made aware that deep inside, I knew, that then, I would be accepted by my relatives for my Spirituality.
I was thankful to realize this and I thanked it and lovingly let it go and now I am more balanced with respect to healing. That is how it works and it is a wonderful, slow process.
There is so much driving us, consciously and subconsciously that it takes time to grow into the greatness we are within.
Ask yourself the question: holding me back from what? The word, evolution, is too vague an answer.
I think you will find that all of your answers will not be sufficient reasons for someone to want to hold you back. Example: more loving, more giving.
You may find, as I did, that I was holding myself back from being true to myself because I thought I would lose my family and that deep down, this was further complicated with the thought that losing my family would allow me the freedom to express myself more spiritually. This was fear speaking. The fear of facing these challenges head on.
We are complicated human beings, each of us but it really is all good because I grew because of these character flaws not in spite of them. In the end they were my teachers.
You will be fine. You are fine. Take each day and learn from it what it has to teach you.
You have the entire universe at your disposal!
Peace,
James

[walking the blog]

Beautiful. I'm going to go on a bike ride and contemplate this. Thank you James. I am certain that this conversation was sent to me at just the right time. Bless you.

[radha_1]

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