Beloved angels!

Namaste! Sri AmmaBhagavan Saranam!

Last year, in December I was fortunate enough to have a wonderful darsan of my beloved AmmaBhagavan! I happened to be the first to go in that morning to have the beatific darsan! The enlightened spiritual guide there allowed me to wait there for as long as the crowd gathering could make it necessary for me to move out to make it convenient for others. So I waited after my darsan simply "glueing" my eyes on beloved Bhagavan. Many devotees came in and took beloved Bhagavan's blessings and I stood virtually feasting on the tremendous grace that was filling the air! Finally when there was a sizeable crowd inside, the Guide gestured to me asking me to move out.

For the first time, I didn't feel disappointed while going towards the exit. And suddenly it happened to me! A strange giggle sort of laughter started and tears gurgled down my cheeks! This was happening to this mortal for the first time in life that had almost crossed fifty years of existence in this form. And it felt very strange and wonderful for me that the mind started to look in for the reason for it. Strangely again, the mind could not identify any reason for the JOY that was there! I just "flowed out" of the hall like a river of love-joy-bliss and suddenly the devotees waiting outside came running towards me to take deeksha, which went on without any effort as long as there were recipients!

Later having reached my home I explained it all to my mother and tried to mimic myself with the giggle, and I was really surprised to see that I could not reproduce it at any cost. Soon, being a considerably excellent mimic, I realised that the giggle was not my "product". Wonderfully, I realised a lot from that experience, from the reflections on that experience. My beloved ones, in fact that experience was of the Absolute and the tremendous joy had no reason too. Again, my mind was very much alive and active but I was seeing it all from a distance so as to see myself and the mind quite objectively. What was there was a blissful "nothing", and it was the most exhilarating experience for the "nothing" in me! My deep gratitude to beloved Bhagavan for the wonderful experience!

Today I am fully convinced that the ultimate experience of the Absolute will really be inexplicably wonderful! The drop that Bhagavan blessed me with on that day has proved to me what the ocean is going to be!

Thank You, my beloved Bhagavan! Thank You! Thank You!
I love You, Ammaaaaaaaaa! I love You, Bhagavaaaaaaaaaaaan!